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Most of my entries are friends only!!!! Commented to be added if you'd like to read about my oh-so-interesting life (ha riight). Don't take the banner unless you plan on giving xstoryofagirlx credit for making it! Cuz I'm talented just like that biatches!
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[02 Oct 2009|08:58pm]
I wish you knew how much you mean to me :(
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[04 Nov 2008|06:56pm]

Some people are just crazy bitches
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Reasons why anyone would be lucky to have me [04 Oct 2008|06:12pm]
[ mood | accomplished ]

My friend Trevor and I have a thing for each other. There's always been that chemistry, flirty behavior, hanging out but they were really dates... whatever you would like to call it.

We're not dating which is kind of a mutual thing I suppose. I want to but at the same time, I guess I'm not really willing to 100% put myself out there to risk losing one of my best guy friends. Maybe one day but we both agree, not right now. There's too much going on in our lives. Decisions will be made when his schooling is finished. So as of right now, we're pretty much best friends who like each other.

He absolutely loves hockey. Can't get enough of it ever. Boston Bruins are his favorite team ever right on up there with Detroit. Boston and Detroit are meeting in Boston this year so I wasn't about ready to vacay with Trevor to Boston, that would be way too expensive, so instead, I decided, I'm going to purchase tickets for possibly one of *the best* hockey games of the Wings season, Colorado Avalanche.

For those of you who don't know, the Avalanche are one of Detroits biggest rivals, if not, the biggest. To understand further, I will give you a visual... it is about ten minutes long, but if you're from Hockeytown or enjoy hockey, you will love it. :)

One of the many reasons why I would make an awesome girlfriend :)

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chicken fried [25 Sep 2008|01:31pm]
[ mood | calm ]

one of my best guy friends kissed me last night...

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[13 Aug 2008|09:08am]
Nate moves in two days :(
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[12 May 2008|11:52pm]
I had a dream that I got married to one of my co-workers (male) at the mall. It was kind of weird. haha 

It was a good feeling though. I dunno. I've never been one of those girls who has dreamt of getting married or anything of that nature. No Monica Gellar for me. However if that's what it really feels like, I'm excited and can't wait!

Just gotta find someone who wants to share that with me
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[03 May 2008|02:40am]
 I graduate college in 17 hours... I have no idea what the hell I'm going to do with my life
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[30 Jan 2008|02:02pm]

How fucking sad... seriously what's wrong with people?
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[21 Jan 2008|01:56pm]
I graduate from college in May 2008. I will be done with courses in June 2008. By June 2009, I plan on having enough money saved up to move to NYC, September by the latest.
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[27 Dec 2007|10:27am]
I just filled out an application to work as an election chair person. Well, more like precinct inspector for the 2008 election in the good ol' HTP. :)

Go Dems :)
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[23 Nov 2007|10:50pm]
I was pretty dumb when I was 17
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[15 Aug 2007|01:04am]
[ mood | pissed off ]

One thing after another
I meet a guy
I get dumped
My best friend moves
We change
I get my summer job going
I've fucked up plenty already
I go to Canada to have fun
My windows get busted in
I take a spring course
Only to take two summer courses
I buy Kelly Clarkson tickets


At least I have turning 21 to look forward to.

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L is for the way you look tonight [14 May 2007|11:10pm]
[ mood | curious ]

I don't update this nearly as much as I'd like to or probably should. I suppose I just haven't had time to think, chat or whatever it is.

Enlight of my recent relationship development, I've been thinking a lot about love. Not necessarily with Jimmy (boyfriend) but just in general. I don't think I'm in love with him at all. I don't even know how long we will last... but this whole I idea  I think it might also be because I am currently reading 

It's a pretty good book so far. A fast read, I'm sure I'll finish it tomorrow after I work on the rest of the chapter I have to read for my spring course. Anyway, in the book, the author, Chuck Klosterman in the first chapter speaks of love. He says that we created an ideal of what we think love should be, because no one really knows.  As a society, we hear songs on the radio, see things in the movies, on TV we read in books what love is SUPPOSED to feel like and how we should feel when we're in "it." But what is love?  Everyone has a different defintion of what love is and what types of love there are. People debate on a daily basis (I'm sure) on whether they are in love, or whether or not it is capable to love again with such a devestating story after losing someone we have told ourselves we love.

I guess you just have to read the chapter to fully understand. I know after I read it I was like no no no, that's bullshit. Thinking about it not long after, I realize that it's totally true. I think that if there was a set definitive explanation of to what love is and how people are supposed to feel, people wouldn't write about love in songs or expect us to know what it's supposed to be like from movies.  I think though, besides the fake love that they show us on the screen and in songs, people seem to forget that it's pretend. Yes, someone might have composed those words with a personal experience of their own, but those people who are on stage (maybe not always) but definitely on screen are characters, they're pretend figments of someone's creative imagination.  From this, the writers unconciously or maybe consciously realize that they are doing this. That people are supposed to feel how their song tells them to feel. 

I think it's important to note that this is sort of a post modernism view point on the situation. How do we know love is a reality and we're just living in it, or vice versa. The post modernism viewpoint on things is pretty fucked up if you ask me, but it does raise good points, especially when it comes to emotions and things of that nature. If reading this, and you're like postmodernism, what is that? It's a sociology theory that most of the professors that I've had will not teach because it's so screwed up, if you want to learn more about you can go here. Some people don't credit wikipedia as being a credible source, but it'll explain it and it provides links to other sources that may be able to better explain.

This question sort of is being brought up because I remembered a comment/question one of my professors (who I have had for two semester and will have again in the fall) had mentioned, how do we know what it is we know? I wish I would have remembered Chuck Klosterman's chapter and I could have brought up a great point, but I'll save that for when I take sociological theory in the winter. Hopefully, I'll have a sweet professor (possibly Meehan) who would be like that is an excellent use of the theory of postmodernism. YEAHH

Leave your thoughts... please :)

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[25 Apr 2007|02:22pm]
oooh who 4.0'd their sociology of the famnily research paper? That's right, I did!!!

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[17 Apr 2007|04:07pm]

Horrible RIP
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[11 Mar 2007|07:12pm]
I went to Best Buy earlier today to get this http://www.bestbuy.com/site/olspage.jsp?skuId=8237339&type=product&productCategoryId=pcmcat99000050021&id=1170290183438

I looked on the website and it's already on back order! It wasn't even released until this week. So I walked over to DSW and got these instead 

Mine weren't 88.95 though, much cheaper
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[21 Feb 2007|01:16pm]
I had a paczki last night. That's 1,000 calories of my life I don't think I can get back ever again, but it was good.... I haven't had one since I was about 9, 10, or 11. Ten years, so I guess that's not bad. I don't think I would have eatten it unless I got the Mountain Dew like I wanted to last night instead of a Diet Pepsi. GRRR lol 

Well anyway, I worked out like a good little girl today to attempt to make up for those calories I gained from the "devil pastry" and now I realize it's Ash Wednesday. I'm not religous or anything by any means but I think I'm going to give up french fries for lent. If anybody has seen me eat, gone out to eat with me or whatever they should know how much I love french fries... they make me happy lol.

So attempting no french fry eating until Easter Sunday. That's a longgggggg 40 days 
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[02 Feb 2007|11:00am]
[ mood | indescribable ]

I should be working on some homework right now. But, I'm not. I'm going to go work out, get my car washed, put my pro-choice bumpersticker on my car and hopefully find something to do for this weekend.

Plans with Ryan got canceled because he's working like mad. Which sucks. Whatever. Was possibly going to go to Windsor with Nate, but like I have told people before, I am more shocked when we hang out, rather than when we don't. It should be the other way around, however, it's not. How pathetic.

Everyone is in Grand Rapids right now... Rachel, Chad and Clint are throwing a party for Ground Hog's day. Odd I know but I love my friends. Couldn't make it because I had to work, like usual. I miss having my Thursday nights free. The beach ughhhh I wish it started sooner. Of course I say this now, but as soon as it happens, I won't feel the same way. I just need to start making some money and be outside in the warm sun some more. Save up some cash for graduate school and buy myself a brand new car. A Jeep Wrangler Unlimited or a regular Wrangler or a Saturn Ion 2. Oh yes, yes, yes.

I talked to someone the other day which completely made me smile. We haven't talked in a while and it's almost always good to talk to an old friend. Of course there are times where it is. However, this time wasn't at time where things were bad.

I graduate next year, hopefully as long as everything goes well.

Sweet life.

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[07 Jan 2007|07:16pm]
it's that time of the year again

For the Autoshow!!!!!!!!! :)

I want a Jeep Wrangler Unlimite
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